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having to finally realized that i have made a stupid decision by letting you go is painful . i let you go for i thought he is the one . but apparantly , he is not . eventhough i am fully aware that if i come back to you , asking for another chance , you will take me back , in a heartbeat . because that is just how you are . you love me , after all this while . i cant . i cant be asking for another chance . i dont deserve you . i have hurt you , said too many terrible things to you . and still , you are there . waiting , hoping for me . you are there even after i said that i love somebody else . you are there , not pushing me to love you back . but you prayed for me to be happy even if its not with you . and i guess i was stupid for asking you to move on . 

 its not about the person i want , its about the person who is willing to be with me no matter how bad i am . and its you . you were there even how bad i was . i dont deserve you . i keep on hurting you . i dont deserve another chance . i waste you away . i am sorry . i wish you wait for me . but i will be too selfish for that . go , i will be fine . its okay .
if two souls were meant to be together , then they will find their way . 

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