just because
i am that kind of friend whom once you hurt me , i will definitely walk away , just taking precautions i would say . i am so tired of getting hurt and betrayed that i cant bear it anymore . i am sorry but i am so fucking tired of saying sorry . i am cold-hearted , yes i admit that . i am too hurt . by him , by my bestfriend . yes , i have got used to it but still , the pain is still there to be honest . i feel so stupid putting other people's need before me . because they do not appreciate me and they left eventually . which is sad . once i love , i love with all my heart . i gave my everything when i got a bunch of lies in return . it is not fair but i still hoping that he will come back . he didn't of course . he acted like nothing happened which kills me inside . he found someone better . and ever since , i start to move on and i just dont care and i am cold and i dont give a fuck about him . i forgot about him completely . i have locked my heart and threw the keys far away