PLAIN JANE

i am sorry that i am too cold sometimes . but you know what , i am only seventeen . and so are you . there are so much more we will experience . you might like me at this point , but you will meet a lot of people . you will find someone else as time develops . it is not that i do not like you . to be honest , i do like you too . but i have to hold my heart tight and keep my aim straight so that i don't easily fall . my heart flutters sometimes when you stared at me and pays attention to me . its just that i cant tell how this is going . and i am scared most of the time because our hearts are easily change . and i am probably the most hurtful and hateful girl you will ever encounter . everytime i see you i just wanted to scream out loud a lot of why's questions . why do you like me ? why dont you tell me straight ? why cant you see the flaws in me ? why do you still want to play with this deadly game ? and i am afraid that one day , when i develop a feeling of liking and i sta

i am definitely an introvert . so there's some facts about me that you probably should know . first and foremost , i am a loyal lover . kalau awak still ingat , masa kita together dulu , selalu saya yang terlampau sayang . saya yang selalu terlampau care pasal awak . yes , i loved you a little too much . saya terlampau sayangkan awak sampai satu tahap , awak tak hargai pun saya . you started to believe , even if you hurt me once or twice or even thrice , i would still take you back and apologize even its not my fault . i am so stupid . why ? because i loved you so much . that i am scared you might leave me just because of a silliest reason . i am an introvert so i have so little of people that i trust , that i can tell my problems to , that i can cry with . and you were one of those people . you know my secrets . and you were everything to me . but then , at one point , you decided to abandon me and leave me hanging , dont know what ive done . you broke me .and i am that kin