PLAIN JANE

i used to have a crush on this guy who happens to be my neighbour . we used to play together all sort of fun games . he is 3 years older than me and a very gentleman . after finishing primary school , he went to a boarding school so we no longer see each other . when he came home for holidays , i used to go to his house and ask him to play with me but i guess , he was too shy to play with a little girl like me and he refused . after that , the gap between us grew even larger . i grew up too and we no longer spoke . and his family also moved to another country and i guess i wont be seeing him again . i liked him alot . its hard for me to move on because he is my childhood crush . but you know , eventually the feelings just simply fades away . and i moved on , i forgot all the things about him then after several years , he came back and acted like nothing happened . it hurts me alot . we talked alot through texts and facebook . i talked about how much i hate school and he would comfor

Last month i went to KL for a short holiday . I stayed at my fav aunty's house located in Bangi . So she and her husband brought me around KL and for the first time ever i went to the famous ikea . My first impression was this will be boring but i was wrong hehe . The feelings are so overwhelming that i took pictures and running around like a little kid in a chocolate factory . I looked around the bedrooms and kitchens and the mini houses ( idk what they call it ) it makes me want to get married and settle down quickly and live in a cute little house and decorate it using ikea's stuffs because damn , they are all so cute yet so simple . I used to be in a brief relationship with this guy which happens to be my classmate (( ew i know )) . I have to admit that i have such a good relationship with him . He is such a sweet guy and he approaches me first and that left me without any other choice . We were together for about 6 months and then it all just feels..... somehow wrong . I