PLAIN JANE

This is another note to myself 1. If you feel like catching any feelings , stop right there 2. Study hard and pay attention in classes 3. Please overcome your fear 4. Yeah , anxiety sucks 5. Peduli apa orang kata ?  Yang hidup tu kau , bukan diorang 6. Hubungan dengan pencipta , plis jaga 7. Kau , kau . Dia  , dia . 8. Keep smiling 9. Trust me , personality is far more important that looks . 10. Remember , someones out there is caring for you and needs you too keep living

Pindah sekolah ; a thing that never cross my mind before . Tak pernah bayang , tak rasa akan mengalamai pengalaman tu . But yeah , this year i moved into a new school which i prefer not to mention the name here . But one thing for sure , its not as bad as i thought . I can be a new person . But of course the night before ive cried until my head hurts and im feeling nausea . I cried because im afraid if i nobody wants to be friend with me , which is such a childlike thought of mine lol . Alhamdulillah everything went well . All of my classmates are kind to me including the boys . And the programs for the soul are good too compared to my old school . Told you , it was hard for me to decide but alhamdulillah , i asked Allah to guide me thru every path that i took . Hmmmm what else ? Well , there are only 15 students in my class which is very few . And i kinda like it bcs the bond between us is just getting stronger day by day . And today abbas suggested that we buy a water heater so tha...

sometimes the pain does make your nerves feel numb . it's okay to feel the pain . it makes you a human . tapi kadang kadang bila sakit tu dah terlampau banyak , dah tak terkira kalinya , kau dah tak jadi manusia . it makes you less than an animal . speaking of which , the overdose pain turns you into a heartless person . tak berperasaan . tak berhati . sebab apa ? because you're tired of waking up and the pain is still there and how you wish it will go away . how you wish the pain is temporary . but , no . it last forever . the memories , the bleeding scars , it would be there forever . all wound heals but it never does . it stays and that is the worst part of it . you close your eyes and hoped that the pain will fade away but i'm sorry , it wont . and i'm sorry too , because you can't be sad all the time . life goes on . life doesn't revolves around you . you must get up from whatever that brings you down , that tear you apart , that turn you into a monst...

this is a note to myself . 1. stop being clingy 2. stop hop ing for him to care 3. stop being so stupid  4. kau ingat kau tahu semua benda ke ? 5. kau ingat dia tu punya perasaan macam kau ? 6. kau ingat kau tu penting sangat ke bagi dia ? 7. you're just a dandelion among the roses  8. just stop hoping for him  9. berhenti care pasal orang yang tak care pasal kau 10. stop hurting yourself you idiot 

" I'm just a star in your universe . Not a planet Or a sun  Not even a galaxy alongside you . Just a shooting star you'll soon forget about , But i'm one of a kind  And I refuse to die for your petty wish . " // tumblr

ada masanya kau benci diri sendiri because there are times where you cant even fulfill your own wish and you cant even reach your target . well , aku pun lalu fasa macam tu . to be quite honest , i never got to reach my target for each year , never . and then you got frustrated with yourself . you get depressed and somehow you just stop living . and let me tell you , that's not cool . i feel disappointed with myself . i feel useless , i feel nothing . but then i realize , its not a big deal actually . well because all of my targets are just simple ridiculous . i mean like , to get straight A's . its not like your life depend on straight A's . you wont die just because your result is not good . it doesnt matter actually . rezeki Allah tu kat mana mana . bukan untuk budak aliran sains je . i mean , how people can be so judgemental . kau ingat account stream untuk budak bodoh je ? seriously ?! a few weeks ago , i went to my school-to-be . and the teacher ask me what stre...

lately , things has become hard on me but i believe its far harder on everybody else .  like i always say to myself , life gets harder but eventually it will get easier .  it doesn't matter if it will take up a long time as long as it will get easier , then its fine for me . i don't even care now about people's first impression about me . well , it has always been snobish , sombong , and garang . but trust me , once you get to know me , you will be suprised by my real attitude . i am actually a very talkative person to be honest . i talk a lot and there's always a story to tell . first impression is either negative or positive . but no worries , it'll change . judging without knowing is not fair .  for example , you label someone sombong because she/he doesn't smile much . who knows she/he might having a hard time . it is just not fair . well , as for me i am inspired by those Ed Sheeran's songs . those songs literally gave me hope every t...