PLAIN JANE

i went shopping at KB Mall with my mom just now . since i got some cash from my dad plus the cash i have been saving for 2 weeks , i pamper myself with some stuffs  . the first shop i went was Popular . i think everyone knows popular . for those who didn't , it is a bookstore . well , i lavh bookstores especially bookstores with vintage style and decos . basically , i have been wanting The Faults in Our Stars by John Green since every booktubers recommended it and said it was sad , makes them cry whatsoever , so the urge to own that book becomes greater . so i hurriedly searched it on the shelves but it's not there . no TFiO ? fck it . then my mom asked the salesgirl and she said the book was out of stock . i just want to cry and curse as much as i could . luckily my mom comforted me and asked me to buy other John Green's . i ended up buying Will Grayson , Will Grayson . i hope it worth every ringgit . but i still want TFiO though . and then we went to PDI because i wa...

i have loads of friends . i mean , load . at school i would say most of the time i would be surrounded by my friends and i would be laughing my ass off over their stupid jokes . but sometimes i would really like to walk alone , sit at the canteen alone . i just want to feel it . to be alone . because i found out that when i was alone i got to think about lots of mistakes i have done on that day and regretting it . being alone makes me feels the real me . i found who i really was through the loneliness . it's quite thrilling indeed . like today , i was walking alone from the canteen and i have been thinking about what i really want in my life . little did i know , i was never exactly know what i want . i don't know whether i want to move to Yaman or stay here , in Malaysia . i don't know if i am a centric person instead of a careless person . then i realized , i have some kind of split-personality syndrome which is very dangerous ( for me ) . sometimes i am very seriou...