cold heart warm fingers

i miss writing . i miss the sound on my laptop's keyboard . i just miss the feelings when writing something that is truly from the deepest part of your heart . there's a lot of things that i want to write out . about friends , life , studies and... love . I am always that one friend who is heartless . you know what , i just do not care if i dont have friends or that my friends walk away from me . Its just... normal cycle of life for me . i will also walk away and move on and start all over again . i do not need friends to tell about my heartaches that seems to have no end . i can keep it all to myself . i can keep it . i am a lone ranger form the very beginning . i can live alone because i am an introvert .

how about love ? well , the situation is same to having friends . i just do not care . i can live alone . and plus , boys are stupid . they are immature . i hate being in a relationship because all it ever did is just destroy me and gave me headache . i cant be with a person who cant accept me for who i am and it seems like to be the hardest thing . i am complicated . for right now , i just want to live aloe and enjoy my single life . its okay to not have a boyfriend as long there is food .

how about studies ? as for right now , i just want to focus on my studies and pass exams with flying colours . i just want to study hard and achieve my life goals and be what i want to be , pursue my passion and live my life to the fullest . yes i admit that i am a study freak . but who cares as long as i am in the op ranks at school . and i dont need people who refuse to be with me during my downfall but want to be with me during my success even if the people happens to be my parents . just... back off okay ?