Much better

I have been living for 16 years already and it felt unbelievable and surreal at the same time when i realized that ive been through so many things already . I have been through so many happy moments that i never forgot and i feel like i want to live that exact moment again . Like one of those time where my family and i went to a family's day vacation and we had so much fun ? I miss that time alot . And those times when i was in MMP ? God , those were the best times ever .

But life is not only about rainbows and butterflies isn't it ? I also have been through lots of heartbreaks,  ups and downs . And those moments , i chose to remember as well . Because heartbreaks make me stronger . I still remember clearly the time when i used to suffer with anxiety . But all praises to Allah , my anxiety didnt last long . By the end of last year , i stopped getting anxiety attacks . I used to feel terribly insecure about my flaws . I always felt like I was not good enough , that theres something wrong about me that need to change . But then i learned to embrace my flaws and imperfections .  I learned to love myself so that when someone hurts me and decided to stop loving me and left , i wont be too sad .

Everything simply starts with you . This year , i felt so much better and more matured in handling my problems and hiding my pain . Yes , i got hurt , my hopes got crashed , but hey , i survived !

If its not okay , then its not the end.