25062015

Harini dapat tahu satu kebenaran . Yang bunyinya hampir sama dengan satu penipuan . Aku dapat tahu yang aku hanyalah sekadar mainan buat kau . Heh , i didnt expect anything like this . The truth is just too cruel to accept . The fact that you actually play with my feelings all this while , it stabs me right in the heart . I cant cry , i dont want to cry over someone as evil as you . You dont worth my tears . Im too numb . Im too dumb to realise . How stupid i am to fall for someone as sly as you . How stupid i am to fall into your trap and couldnt find my way out . I am stupid .

Aku ni hanya sekadar mainan ke bagi kau ? Aku ni hanya sekadar tempat kau merangkak balik bila kau tak diperlukan ke ? Aku ni hanya sekadar tempat bila kau bosan ke ? Semua kata kata kau selama ni tipu ke ? Semua yang kau janji sumpah setia bodoh kau tu , hanya sekadar umpan untuk aku jatuh dalam perangkap kau ke ?

Im hurt . Too hurt . I want to scream my heart out . I want to yell at you for breaking me apart . I want to kill you a million times . I want to hurt you too . But i cant . Why , just why ? Why you picked me  to make you forget about her ? why did you lie to me ? How could you ? When i gave you all my heart , you just give me a bunch of sweet lies .

Too broken , too hurt .
I need to cry as much as i could .

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