24102014

why would you even care ? stop with all your nonsense . stop interfering into my life . just stay away from me . just back off . kenapa ? sebab saya dah penat cuba untuk move on and you , without hesitation came back into my life ? are you freaking kidding me ? let me make things clear , you can back off from my life and stay away from my life . stop telling what to do what is wrong with me . i know ! i know everything are wrong about me . i make a lot of mistakes but you dont have to point it out . yes , i know and i realized that you are a good guy . and i'm , right here , am the bad girl . i'm the mean one i'm the one who always made mistakes . i am socially awkward . okay ! i get it .

dah tak perlu nak jadi protector atau abang untuk saya . dont waste your time trying to protect me and to be at my side when i'm weak . because after all , i won't go to you if i need someone's shoulder to cry on . its definitely not you . you dont have to watch over me . i don't need you anymore . let's just pretend that i'm not exist . this girl that you've known since she was 10 years old are now changed . i'm changed into a whole different person . i am no longer bubbly . i am no longer pink lover . i am no longer talkative . i am no longer friendly .

i am cold , i loathe pink and love black , i don't talk much , i am mean . i am a whole new person . so what do you expect ? lower your expectations man . cuma satu je aku harap ;


cukuplah ambil tahu perihal aku . hidup aku , biarlah aku je yang lalui . tak perlu kau sekali . sebab somehow , you'll ended up hurting me . jadi cukuplah setakat ini . just ,

stay away .

 1529 hours .

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