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because i'm fragile . most of the time , i'm heartbroken over the shittiest things . because i'm that confusing . because i'm uncapable of trusting myself . because i'm horribly honest that sometimes i hurt people around me . because i hate school and everybody except for my family and friends . i don't show my love in public . i love them quietly but i let them acknowledge it . because sometimes i feel lonely eventhough i'm in a crowd of talking people . and the worst part of it , my diffidence are getting worser than ever . i literally shaking and trembling when i'm in the crowd . i hate being around guys that stare . because i' m afraid of what they'll see . my flaws , my scars and my pathetic true self .

well , today i went to the library with some of my friends . just like my usual saturday routine . i always go the library to study because i wont when im at home . well , there are uncountable distractions in my house even the plain pink wall seems interesting to be staring at lol . and as usual too , i wore my favourite plain abaya paired with my red sneakers . uhm , yeah red sneakers . i mean , they are super comfy so what ?! and i ended up buying a new liptint ( again ) . well , that is because ;

i am a diva afterall. hahahahaha