PLAIN JANE

having to finally realized that i have made a stupid decision by letting you go is painful . i let you go for i thought he is the one . but apparantly , he is not . eventhough i am fully aware that if i come back to you , asking for another chance , you will take me back , in a heartbeat . because that is just how you are . you love me , after all this while . i cant . i cant be asking for another chance . i dont deserve you . i have hurt you , said too many terrible things to you . and still , you are there . waiting , hoping for me . you are there even after i said that i love somebody else . you are there , not pushing me to love you back . but you prayed for me to be happy even if its not with you . and i guess i was stupid for asking you to move on .  its not about the person i want , its about the person who is willing to be with me no matter how bad i am . and its you . you were there even how bad i was . i dont deserve you . i keep on hurting you . i dont deserve another...

what a beautiful date today is . the feeling of being rejected by you is ..... unexplainable . it hurts . but somehow , i survived the heartbreak . aku tak paksa kau terima aku . aku tak paksa kau bagi peluang kat aku . i just want you to hear me out . and i want you to stop avoiding me . thats all . you rejected me because you said that i was too good for you and that you dont deserve me and that i deserve better . look , that is the stupidest reason i have ever heard , no joke . why can't you be better for me ? fight for me and just stop ignoring me ? i think that was not the reason . i think that you dont want me at all . and you said all of those things just because you dont want to hurt my feelings . i dont know man... i missed you . i missed you alot . i pray to Allah if you were not meant for me then bring you away from me . and then here i am , typing in a different country . is this it ? i missed you . and i am slowly letting go . i am slowly moving just like you aske...